Just live your life. Stop worrying. Everyone worries about things like that, but if love exists, you’ll be amazed on how many things can be solved if two people really love each other.
Not it’s not bad. You loved him, and because of that it’s normal to think sometimes if you meant something for him. If he thinks at you, if he still wonders if you’re fine, or happy. It’s normal. That doesn’t mean you haven’t moved on. You’ve moved on, you’re just a good person that still thinks at people of the past as well.
Maybe you need to accept this. I know it’s not okay, and it’s hard, but we can’t make people feel love for us. We just need to understand that sometimes it’s not meant to be and it’s better this way.
So why let him? why are you letting him to leave and come, like you are a damn train station. You’re human. you deserve someone that won’t leave you every time he thinks someone else is better. you deserve someone that thinks that you’re the best.
He doesn’t want you now, because he can have you when the hell he wants. One day, when you’ll get better, you’ll feel nothing for him, and then he’ll want you. that always happens. You’ll see my darling, what’s meant to happen, it will happen. Maybe this is a lesson for you. A lesson you had to learn the hard way. Loving people is good. It’s good because that means you’re decent, and love isn’t for everyone. Not every person is capable of love. But you are. And for that, you should be proud of yourself, even if you’re loving the wrong person now. Someday you’ll love the right one.